Beware of what you research.


I have spent much of the day researching squamous cell carcinoma and anal cancer. Learned useful stuff that I really, really didn’t want to have to learn.

It’s all happening faster now. I talked to Katy and Richard today (so glad to have steady adult kids) and to my therapist. Kaiser called a number of times to set up appointments to have the port installed and the CT scan performed on the 8th. Peg will come with me. I need to be at the hospital at 8:30 a.m., so we’re flying in the day before and will stay at the Prince Waikiki, which Peg and Burny recommend. Reservation made. More calls to set up the travel, and to tell me what to expect and how to prepare for the appointments on the 8th. I need to get blood tests from the South Kona Clinic on Monday or Tuesday, probably Monday. Emailed Lizbeth to cancel our appointment on the 8th, and need to cancel the Sunrun appointment too.

Also need to call Steve and ask if he and/or Nancy can let Abby out at some point during the day on the 8th, and to feed her in the evening.

I have the feeling that when I stop being busy, I’m going to be very scared.